Well I'm still car-less which sucks. I miss having a car so much. It's not so much about the physical loss of a possession because frankly it was never really mine anyway. It was always in my fathers name and therefore under the threat of being taken. It's tragically ironic that right when I was so close to really owning...transferring it to my name...I wrecked it. I guess life just sucks that way sometimes. The worst part is the loss of my independence. I am now dependent on the whims of others. If other people don't have time to transport me then I'm kind of screwed. However let the record show that I don't enjoy asking people to do stuff for me that often anyway. I WANT to do things for myself! I think thats powerful. I feel robbed of my mojo, my power. Other people have the reigns now and thats just no good. In the spirit of being realistic, I know that I'm not completely powerless. My situation could be much worse. I still have the ability to get to a fair number of places. Not having a car forces me to think more about whats important and if I really need to go certain places. In that same vain, my desire to move out and buy a new car is also forcing me to make some better choices about spending money. I WILL get a new car. I WILL make it happen. How long will it take? I'm not a psychic but I hope it will be very soon...like next month. I'm trying my best to make good decisions here but hey I'm only human and sometimes the path is rocky.
In other news, the BF and I had a great day together yesterday. He totally saved the day. We had lunch, stopped by his parents house for a while, picked up some ceramic gifts we made for each other at Color Me Mine a while back, and then spent the rest of the afternoon relaxing in a beautiful park. I don't think it was coincidental that out of all the areas we could have went to in that 500 acre park we ended up near an outdoor wedding. We didn't watch (you know I wanted to!), but it definately upped the love ante. I love this guy (yes you lol). I've got all my cards on the table. All my chips are in and I hope he understands that. So anyway it was a very chill, relaxing day and I'm glad we did it. He did good :)
In other news, the BF and I had a great day together yesterday. He totally saved the day. We had lunch, stopped by his parents house for a while, picked up some ceramic gifts we made for each other at Color Me Mine a while back, and then spent the rest of the afternoon relaxing in a beautiful park. I don't think it was coincidental that out of all the areas we could have went to in that 500 acre park we ended up near an outdoor wedding. We didn't watch (you know I wanted to!), but it definately upped the love ante. I love this guy (yes you lol). I've got all my cards on the table. All my chips are in and I hope he understands that. So anyway it was a very chill, relaxing day and I'm glad we did it. He did good :)
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